Wednesday, July 22, 2009

ISwarO gururaatmEti..

To me, Moon, Sun, stars etc. are all at the 'same' height - that which is unreachable to me.

Similarly mahaanubhaava-s, maharshi-s, daivam maanusha rUpENa.. I don't see difference in them.

Satsangam has led me to a Maharshi. I need to call him with a lighter name, but I cannot take this guru-tulya's name directly. So, I will call him Doctor garu or Dr-ji.

God created a desire in me to get Reiki initiation as a 'misha' to make me meet Dr-ji. I have got a great reward to my pursuit in that meeting.

Things were so opportune that when I strongly felt like talking to him, he was in Bangalore.. his visit was to conclude just two days after my meeting.. and those two were working days (which means I could not have made it if not on this day.) I didn't know much about him till I met him. I know very little of him even now. He is large and contains multitudes. I am a (yet-to-germinate) seedling in comparison to that giant tree.

It was a cold, cloudy and windy day. True to my customary practice, I arrived at his stay half-an-hour late, and was received by another great soul. More about her later. I was seated in the hall and soon Dr-ji came there. I stood up spontaneously, involuntarily when I saw him descending the stair case revealing himself from feet upwards!!

His appearance beat my expectations.. (But why did I 'expect' his appearance to be one way or the other?) I expected he would be of fair complexion and plump. He was not fair and not plump. I expected grey hair on his pate. All that greyness was on my head. I expected him to 'look' like a 50+ man. But I look older than him. I expected him to be a high-flier and exhibit that nature.. He flies higher than I can imagine, but he is still always down-to-earth. I thought that he would be a dabbler in philosophy, but he is a veritable Maharshi.

The Reiki initiation was one of the most memorable experiences I had in my life. Easily my highest spiritual experience so far. As Dr-ji was invoking the ishTa-dEvata-s, I could experience their presence like never before. When he invoked the blessings of Hanuman (Dr-ji asked Hanuman to place His hand on my head and bless me), I could really feel the soft and pleasant hand!!!!!!
During the initiation I had an intense pain in my lower stomach. (Some detoxification in the intestine, it might have been... a long forgotten intestine-related problem resurfaced in that week.) I feared that I may get up writhing in that pain and fail the initiation. I could control myself somehow. Among other ways, the Energy was felt by me as warm/hot winds around my head. (As this session happened in open-air, and as it was a cold and windy day, when the session started I was actually shivering!!)

All this happened under the watchful and loving glances of Bhagavan Sri Ramana. Bhagavan keeps showering His Grace from the numerous photos ubiquitous throughout the house of Umasankar where Dr-ji was staying.

I was having one of those unbearable weekly-bouts with migraine throughout that day and the previous few days. But next day onwards, it just left me for these past 1.5 months... returned only once when I was 'punishably' irregular with my diet, sleep and was in deep stress.

Dr-ji promised me in that meeting that I would be blessed with a darSanam of Sri Dakshinaamurthy within 21 days from then. The very next weekend I went to Sringeri and had long and close darSanam of Saaradaamba and Jagadguru. I met my father - who is my prathama and prathaana guru. I had the darSanam of HH SwayamprakaaSa swaamijee of Hariharapura peeTham. I visited Tiruvannamalai (a lot about it, later.)

eeSwarO gururaatmEti ... dakshiNaamUrtayE namaH

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